V6 "But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou
hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy
Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly."
Earlier in the chapter, we read about doing alms in secret. Now we
read about praying in secret. What is interesting to me personally is
that God will reward openly.
I am thinking: if I pray in secret nobody knows I prayed to God but
everybody knows I get some reward. So how will others know it is from
God? And if nobody knows it is from God, then how is that glorifying
him? It does not add up.
Let us think this from several angles. First, if I pray openly so
everybody knows, does it make me think, "ok God, the spotlight is on
you now so you have to show us your thing"? As if we are taking God's
reputation hostage: "God you are accountable to maintain your
reputation as an all loving and all powerful God".
But God does not worry about winning popularity contests. He does not
need us to approve nor legitimise his Godship. He is the great "I am".
Also related to this, when you let everbody knows, you have the side
effect of some people monitoring the progress of your prayer. They may
help you in direct or indirect ways so your prayer is realised.
When nobody else knows, others are doing their own things unaware that
they are realising your prayer, i.e. doing God's will unaware. You
also do not expect people to do anything "special" for you, because
you know they do not know. You put your hope only in God.
Second thing about praying openly is that I am declaring that I
cannot do anything about it anymore, thus my asking God to intervene.
So maybe now I can stop trying.
There are certainly many situations where we need to stop playing god
and get out of his way to let God do his thing; this is clear. On the
other hand, there are also many situations where God works his thing
_through_ our sweat and creativity. For many christians, the line is
clearer than others. I myself need to ask God's grace often to see the
line.
Third, what about the part where nobody knows that the reward I get is
from God? We have discussed above that God is not into popularity
contest. The effect on us, however, is more profound. If nobody knows
it is from God, what do I think?
Do I recognise it was from God? Or do I think it was due only to my
own sweat and creativity (minus God working through them)? Do I give
credit to God openly? Or do I keep it a secret that God did it? Does
it make me proud of the effectiveness of _my_ secret prayer?
Fourth, are we supposed to pray _only_ in secret? I do not think so
because Jesus also prayed openly in addition to in secret. So how do
we know which is which? I do not think there is a clear formula as we
discussed above.
My thinking is how does this prayer "benefit" others? If it does not,
then maybe it is better to pray that in secret.
I believe in praying in secret.
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